I hope I didn't offend anyone with this morning's late-for-school post. I was trying my best to express my gratitude and frustrations in the same 1 minute restriction. Jieyang, I wasn't referring to you. Sorry.

After my prelim papers returned today, I went with Carine, Tanya, Clar and Ehui to Serene Centre to eat ice cream at Macs. I was so pissed, I ended up stuffing myself with so much food, an ice-cream sundae, two packets of fries, and 3 chicken nuggets. If I had more money I would have eaten more, and since I didn't, I ended up tearing tissue paper and folding paper boats. After that, I kicked and hit bushes, hit ehui (with consent), and sang many random songs in a short time. Now I'm going to play the impossible quiz, and later I'm going to run. I'm skipping dinner. Healthy self-torture.

Of course, stress is never healthy. It leads you to do the most ridiculous things. But I really cannot think of doing anything else. I spent most of last night crying (I'm not afraid to say this), and today I'm binging. What's there tomorrow? I fear to ask.

Everything feels like its crashing down, and I seem to be leading myself down a road of self-deterioration. But its better, I swear its better than simply depending on my friends. I can't place that sort of stress on them anymore. But I am so grateful for those who were really patient with me and took the time to comfort me, it really means a lot to me. Also, those who sent me verses and comforting messages, you've been a real joy. Thank you. I know I've been a real ass, and I'm sorry. I'm afraid to promise anything now, but I'm going to get through this, that's all I know. I don't know how, but I will get through.


Another day of hell tomorrow. Oh Lord, strengthen me.



Oh. And this goes out to Carine. We're together through it all. There is only so much I can do, I know. But when you need me, I will be there for you. =)